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#I HAVE NO MOUTH AND I MUST SCREAM AM HATE SPEECH TV#The TV makes no sense to me, I feel overloaded.so I turn it off and try to lie still in the darkness. #I HAVE NO MOUTH AND I MUST SCREAM AM HATE SPEECH HOW TO#I feel a little better, telling myself that my body knows how to take care of me.Ģ:15 God, the audio distortion is incredible. My body moves on it's own, with little attention from me. Feeling a more basic urge, I slowly manage to make my way to the bathroom to relieve myself. I'm having trouble understanding what's being said. I try to watch it, to ground myself, but the audio distortion has become severe. The light of the runes fades out, and I snap back to my body.Ģ:00 I'm laying on the couch, with the TV on. Now I am only the bones of the serpent, carved with the glowing runes of my ancestors, radiating hate and the will to live into the void. The void does not respond, and my scale armor is stripped away. I am reason, pure and immoveable.I do not fear you. As I lay in the darkness with my eyes closed, I transform myself into jeweled serpent, scales glittering with mathematical perfection. It is unmoved, as indifferent as God judging ants, and I let the light go, exhausted. I then try to fight it, pouring my soul into the void, a brilliant pyre of white-hot energy to fill the emptyness. I try to accept the void, but I will not reveal anything to me of its nature. I try to engage the material, to work with it, wrestle some meaning from it, but there is only the infinite void pressing back on my mind. The universe is a void, empty and ominous. I curl up on the couch, almost terrified, but unable to embrace even that emotion. I watch a little TV to pass the time, and notice that sounds are becoming distorted, deeply bassy and irregular, like an audio tape being stretched out.ġ:30 Oh hell. I'm starting to get a little worried, but have no idea how bad things are going to get yet.ġ:10 I feel very tired, the drug pressing me down into the couch. One more capsule, for about 25 mg of very pure 5-MeO-DiPT total. Good.Ġ:45 Oh yah.a very good, strong buzz, sending shivers of pleasure through my body. I'm clearly feeling it now, a body buzz not unlike a less speedy form of MDMA. A smarter person would have stopped at 10-15 mg, but smart isn't on the agenda tonight.Ġ:30 Yet another 5 mg. I'm starting to feel something in my temples. This is one such story.Ġ:00 A 5 mg capsule of 5-MeO-DiPT is taken with water.Ġ:20 A third 5 mg. There comes a strange and magical time in the dose-response curve of a number of drugs when they stop being what I think they are, and transform into something alien. ![]()
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